I need a release.

I need a fuckin' physical release.

I need an outlet to just vent. My own place or SOMETHING to vent, or hell, spontaneously combust. Should I say that I'm open to suggestions? Well, yes I am, and at the same time, I probably wouldn't accept them. Let me see:
-Drawing: mind goes blank w/no motivation or is inhibited and doesn't want to draw.
-Video games: I don't have a particular gaming system.
-Watching TV/a movie: can't; remotes are hidden unless I ask.
-Music: don't have my Ipod; gotta depend on Youtube for my music fix (fucking hell, I feel like a junkie).
-Beating my pillow: to hell with that.
-Screaming/Crying into my pillow: drains me of energy AND its been done plenty of times before.

Damn it...art class fucking frustrates me @ times, and the ironic part is that I LIKE to draw! Stupid brain ("Hello in there!") clams up and doesn't let my fuckin' motivation flow out. I'm usually sitting staring at my paper without a goddamn clue on where to start when my classmates are drawing out their images so purely and freely. I just wanna draw out my rage without having to even FUCKING THINK ABOUT IT!!. But then again my brain seems to want to do the EXACT GODDAMN OPPOSITE.
Hmm...sex would be a good physical relase. But I don't have a BF nor do I have any plans to do ANY of that shit yet. Guess I'll have to get by reading steamy stories on FF.net or on my DA page (or going out to buy a delicious adult novel to appease what inner demonic restlessness that I have). And what would also be helpful would be a more decent paycheck from work! Working the fuckin' late shift doesn't really do shit, except give you a paycheck of just under $40 and get you home by 1 a.m! Fucking hell...I need a release. If my desire isn't met, then my frustration will simmer down and cool off (eventually), but it'll just be sitting and won't go anywhere. It builds up and waits.
I have to fucking work on Thanksgiving, closing shift no doubt (I pray that the time-and-a-half that raises my pay better be fucking worth it). Fuck, my weekend better make-up so I need to find my release soon. REAL FUCKIIN' SOON.

P.S: If you people out there who watch me would drop by and leave a comment ONCE IN A WHILE, that would be helpful. If it means that I drop by and leave comments or notes too, then I'll do that. I'm getting bored of looking at my little gallery and seeing a lot "no comments added" under my pics...